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An early "Happy Halloween!" to everyone! ^_^

I'm considering buying a rename token and changing my username again. Its rather hard to do on LJ considering that so many of the ones I want are taken. The one that sticks with me is "viridisinvidia." Honesly, I'm just bored with looking at my username and wish for a new one. I haven't taken real time to think it over. I can't use "xisela" because it's already taken which makes me sad.

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Okay, so I'm going to have to work for Halloween which breaks my heart into a million pieces, but I did get to go to a Halloween party tonight. Common Ground held their annual Halloween Party and I was their Sugar Mama, making sure it went off with enough stuff to make it fun. I did it because I wanted to even though the boys feel guilty that I'm spending so much. I don't really care. I don't have any other bills and it was nice to be able to go to a party. I had the best time. It was a really inviting and friendly atmosphere so I was comfortable getting up and around. I danced and laughed and did all those wonderful things that I never really did in college. I think it was easier because I wasn't going to embarrass anyone, but Wade if I acted out. I think that was okay.

So anyway... PICTURES! These are of my thrown together costume. I didn't feel like breaking out the Jedi gear and my mother had the best wigs hanging around that she grabbed up last year after Halloween was over. I raided her make-up drawer too. Made me happy. One needs to realize that these are almost 12 hours after the initial application of the make-up so they're kinda dull. I've got a couple of pictures that I snapped before I left the house, but they're in mom's camera and I didn't feel like going to get them when I got home.

( Highlights!! )

I've decided that I want one of THESE whenever I can get my greedy little hands on one. It has adapters for my phone, laptop, ipod, and Wade's PSP. OMG I SHALL DIE WITHOUT IT! Lol.

♥

It's really bad when you're watching a show from the 70's and, after they talk about a favorite show ending, your immediate thought is "Why don't they just buy the DVDs?"

>_

I had to go look it up in my journal because I couldn't actually remember, but yesterday was the year anniversary of my grandmother's death. This doesn't impact me as much as everyone else, because, for some strange reason, I seem to handle death differently. I don't actually cry or get upset. Yes, I miss my grandmother and I can cry for the loss of her, but otherwise I don't really do much crying (funerals don't count; I'm very empathetic and all the sadness there makes me completely sad thus why I don't go to many). I'm more worried about the impact that it has on the rest of the family - my mother, aunt, and grandfather. Pawpaw seems well adjusted. He has me so he hasn't necessarily lost his roommate. He essentially gained one just as loud, a little taller, and a lot messier. Oh, I know I can't compare to my grandmother and the love he had for her, but Juanita offered an interesting insight. I look almost exactly like my mother did when she was young my age (she still acts young) and, though he lost a wife, he gained his "little girl" back when I moved in. Of course, I am not my mother and I don't cause half the problems she did when she was my age, but it makes a little bit of sense. I'm just glad I could be here. I enjoy staying with my grandfather. It's nice to have a roommate that reminds me of my brother. Lol.

Okay, so I've been watching/listening to Notre-Dame de Paris a whole hell of a lot and it seems to have inspired me to want to read The Hunchback of Notre Dame. Honestly, I've never wanted to read that book before, but I want to get to know the literary characters since all I have to compare the ones in the musical with are the Disnified versions (which does NOT work). Does anybody local have the book? Matt? Brian? You know anybody that has it? Otherwise, I'm going to have to go and buy it. >_

Not mad. Just wanted to use a new icon because it's totally awesome.

♥

My newest obsession...

( Notre Dame de Paris )

Okay, so I'm definitely NOT an American Idol fan, but I have to admit to the world that the one singer that I adore from the damn monster that is AI is David Archuleta. That season was the only season that I actually watched any of and it was because of him. That kid has the most beautiful voice and I think that his loss on AI was a screwjob. Honestly, David Cook was more "bankable" and controllable (DA's father liked to poke his nose into his son's business on AI which got them into hot water), but Archuleta had the superior voice.

What spawned this tiny ranty-mcrant? I've got a copy of one of his latest songs - Zero Gravity - and I'm totally digging it. I mean, a lot! It's beautiful! I swear, this is the only AI contestant that I squee over and will probably stay that way for a long time.

Eh. I forgot to go back to work last week (or this week) in order to get training done on the new ACL Elite. *headdesk* Totally told Trish I would do that and I forgot. I finally remembered when I had a note from my pawpaw when I got in tonight. I was like, "Why do I need to call work?" So I asked him why and he said it had something to do with a machine and I needed to go in 30 minutes early. It hit me like a bolt (as all things do) and I realized what it was. I can't believe I forgot, but the first week I was off all I did was sleep. I mean literally all I did was sleep. I was extremely happy to sleep and be a couch potato. It was great.

I've got to go back to work tomorrow and that's cool. I mean, I had the best time while I was off. Went to wrestling and saw the friends. Lots and lots of fun. Played with the girls which was the best thing evar! I love playing with Shan and Addy. It makes my day.

Okay... maybe more later. Watching Iron Chef!

I don't know what it is, but watching the show Horders on A&E instantly makes me go pick up all the clothes out of my room and start on laundry. I think it's the feeling that I simply DO NOT want to end up like that. I'm not necessarily a hoarder. I'm actually just too damn lazy to clean my room. I'd rather be doing something else and, more likely than not, when I have my own home I'm going to find a way to budget in someone to clean the place. Seriously. I hate housekeeping. I swear I should've been born a boy with all my non-girly tendencies. Then again, I like being a girl. I think it's that I'm just lazy.

Also - BIOSHOCK FTW! I was entirely creeped out by the game when I first turned it on. I mean - the Big Daddies and Little Sisters are thoroughly creepy. I only knew that they were the "RAWR MONSTERS!" of the game and so I was figuring it would be harder than it is. Okay, so I AM playing it on easy so maybe that's why I've taken out five Big Daddies with such ease, eh? Electrobuckshot ftw as well. Big Daddies don't stand a chance against it.

I'm finding the gameplay great even though I thoroughly suck at FPS's. I mean, I'm horrible. Brian can testify as he's played CoD (was it CoD or MoH? Anyway...) with me. I'm pretty damn bad. Now, the puzzle-like areas are pretty easy for me. I just keep getting lost and wandering back into areas I've already been in. I wish the little arrow that comes up would stay up whenever I'm trying to do something. I need direction.

SummerSlam Sunday night was pretty good. BTW, boys. The "fan" was plant. I'm 100% sure of it because of how they worded it on their website.

"Realizing he must face Cena were he to keep his precious gold, Orton reluctantly climbed into the ring. After the two engaged one another, Cena appeared mere seconds from victory when an overzealous member of the WWE Universe charged the ring and accosted the referee. As security swarmed, The Viper took advantage of the distraction, quickly confronting Cena and administering a devastating RKO to pin his foe for the win."

I think they're setting up a whole thing with Cena being screwed out of the title and such.

I MUST share this with everyone only because I love this song so much.

"Act 2-06: Rhymes with Elixer (Chocobo Chocobo)" by The Scuba Divers from the CD set Echoes of Betrayal, Light of Redemption - A remix of Final Fantasy IV songs.

I'm fixing to quit FF11 because I have no one to play with and can't get anyone to help me. I LOVE the game, but I can't do anything because I'm by myself.

Every single one of you who quit needs to kiss my ass. You wanted me to play and then you all don't play anymore. You don't realize just how mad that makes me.

EDIT: Entirely frustrated that I can't finish some of the quests by myself. That's the only reason I even put this up. You all still suck, just not as much now. I've been playing Lego Batman for about four hours and now I'm satisfied. I've blown up all kinds of Lego-stuff and I'm better now.

I acquired season two of Burn Notice as well as Lego Batman yesterday. I am pleased. Also, today we're going to town to officially turn my grandmother's car into my car. Totally stoked about it. Cannot wait to do it. ^_^ Great times~!

On top of all that, I'm fixing to be on a two week vacation. I work this coming weekend and then I'm off for 11 days. Wooooooooooooo! Sometime in the middle of that I'm going to be helping mom move my brother into his new apartment at ASU. I haven't been able to help do that in several years and I'm kinda excited. This is supposed to be Wade's last year there and I'm excited for him. Two college graduates - my parents are going to be so effin' proud that they're gonna bust. I just wish my grandmother could've seen Wade graduate. I'm glad she got to see me do it. Dad was actually surprised that I had a vacation. He asked me if I'd worked there long enough to get a vacation, but I've been at Harris for six months. Six months. Can you really believe it's been that long? I can't. I'm really loving my job though. I dread the getting up and going, but once I'm there I'm happy. It's so fun working with Juanita and my weekend/night crew is outstanding. I keep telling everyone that if I ever had to go to the ER, it's going to be after seven pm and/or on the weekends. Of course, I'd already be there on the weekends so I shouldn't ever have to go to the ER then. Lol.

Anybody wanna make plans for that weekend? We need to do something. I know I'll probably be at wrestling that Saturday because I really miss going and watching. I love it because it's just so damn great. I mean it's not WWE or anything, but I find myself being able to get more into it. Maybe it's just because I'm there and it's live? Or maybe it's because I like seeing Matt and Morgan making asses of themselves? It's really great watching Matt get his ass kicked too. Lol. He plays the whipping boy so well though definitely not as well as his brother (Sorry, Matt - Morgan has more practice with getting his ass kicked).

Hands down, The Breakfast Club and Weird Science. There are others on his list that I love, but those are two that I can watch over and over again. The Home Alone series as well as Flubber may fall into that category, but TBC wins over all of them. I love that movie so much. It fueled my expectations for high school (and made me sad when they didn't turn out that way).

The car is sold. I found this out when I got up last night as there were seven one-hundred dollar bills sitting on the coffee table. I'm excited. Now I'm going to purchase my grandfather's Mercury from him! ^_^ This car is, hands down, THE best car I have ever owned.

Full episodes of He-Man on YouTube!!!!

I lovez!

BRIAN!!

I think it's official - I have entirely lost all my muses.

I have no real will to write anymore and, while that's not horrible, it is kinda bad. I really don't care to do it any more, nor do I care to even be a part of a group. I have to force myself to keep active in what games I'm in, but otherwise I feel as if there's nothing left for me. The groups I've been in (and am currently in) have been wonderful and they've done more for me than anything I've ever had, but otherwise there's nothing left in my brain. Yes, there's the physical desire to write - the need to sit down with pencil and paper in my hands and put together something amazing just for the hell of it - but there is no satisfaction or mental stimulation that comes from it. My hands still twitch every so often with the thought of writing something absolutely awesome, but there's nothing that comes to mind.

I suppose this means that I'm on my own personal hiatus from any type of fiction until such a time that my little muses return?

Uhm, G.I. JOE ppl? WTF is up with Baroness NOT having her accent in the previews?! I have heard rumors about Desto and they satisfy my disappointment with him, but nothing can fix the anger inside me about the Baroness.

BARONESS = COLD WAR EVIL ACCENT!

OMG BRIAN YOU NEED TO SEE WATCHMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll give a 'review' next time I'm available, but now I shall head to bed.

Okay, so we went car shopping yesterday and I've got a couple models that I'm looking at. Surprisingly enough - they're all hatchbacks. Hm.

( Chevy HHR )

I really liked this one because it was the only one we found that the place actually had in blue. I test drove it and it drove so well. Plus, it had most all of the bells and whistles that I wanted on it. I really liked it, BUT the lowest price we could get was $19,000. Granted, this was a brand new car with only 50 miles on it. It's on the top of my list because it is on the lot, brand new, and drove so well.

( Pontiac Vibe )

The Vibe that we looked at was a slightly used (<6,000 miles) version. It was still quite new (an '09) and had been kept up very well. I know Pontiac is a good brand and the salesman said that even with the Pontiac brand disappearing they would still be able to get parts for it. I knew this because Cameron and I had discussed that last time I took the boys out. He also informed me that the Pontiac Vibe = the Toyota Matrix in Pontiac clothing. This is pretty much true because when you looked at the sticker, it said that the engine was a Toyota engine. Funny. It had most everything I wanted, but it was red. I really don't like red. It was priced at $17,000 and, while affordable, was used. All the new ones, 2010 models, were silver and grey. I don't want a silver car damn it.

( Chevy Aveo5 )

The Aveo5 is basically like the Vibe and the HHR, but it is practically an import. The car is made from 75% Korean parts and so the base model is $14,000. This was the most affordable of all, but it was the least luxurious. Still a very nice car and very much in my price range, but I'm not real sure. Plus, there are two colors that I'm looking at online that are nice. I'm not sure. If I'm going purely for affordability, I might take the Aveo5 as it's basically just like the Vibe.

I kinda think I'm holding out for the brand new HHR, but we're still in the first stages of searching. Honestly, even though I wanted a Ford, nothing there really wowed me like the hatchback cars did. I mean, they were nice. I loved the size of the Vibe compared to the HHR as it's really long, but the HHR drove so much better than that Pontiac.

I'm hoping we get this settled out sometime in the next three months as I'd really like to be driving a new car soon.

Ha! We're going shopping today... just as soon as I get my lazy ass into the shower!

^_^

Okay so the shopping was a bust. I slept all day, literally, but I now feel 100% better than I have in almost a week. I've been really fatigued lately and I think my anemia is setting in again. I've picked up my bottle of vitamins and started taking them again so, hopefully, when I get around today we'll be in the shape to go out. Besides, Pawpaw's back has been bothering him a little so it doesn't hurt that we didn't go today.

Otherwise, I don't have any real plans right now. I've noticed that Harris Ford has some rather nice prices on their vehicles and so I'm not too dismayed about payments. I know for a fact that I won't be getting a brand new vehicle as I cannot afford a four or five hundred dollar a month payment. I mean, I could, but I'd worry too much about my money if I did. I would rather go three hundred and feel comfortable about what I have on me in case of emergency. That's the biggest deal anyway.

Considering that meta_007 is putting me to shame entry-wise and he's been back less than a week, I decided that it was time to step up and actually write a few. I don't do it often enough anymore though I feel like I've been needing two for the past week so .... yeah.

I'm going shopping for a new car today (not buying, just shopping) and I can already feel my chest beginning to tighten up. It makes me extremely anxious to go into this because I know didley about cars and their prices. I don't know if I'm getting a good deal or not and, in the end, I'll end up settling for something I don't actually want because I'm tired of looking. I know I will. That's what I do and it sucks.

I really, really want a blue car, but blue isn't "in" right now. Everything I've looked at so far (dealers' online stocks) has been silver. I don't want effin' silver. My mother has a silver car. I want BLUE. I want blue because that's my favorite color so get me a god-damned blue car you bastards!

The good thing is that I'm just going to go look, take notes, and bring those notes back to check the blue book page to see if the prices I'm being handed are decent for what they're giving me. So far, my best deal has been my grandfather's Mercury. He's offered to sell it to me at a good price with no worries about how much my payments will be. I'm rather stoked about that, but I don't want to do it since someone in my family will probably make a stink about it (my money is on Aunt Donna or Daddy).

I just... I want a blue car. I want a blue car that has four doors, power locks/windows, a cd player, automatic transmission, cruise control, tinted windows, a moon roof, and is long enough to fit me. If you find something of that persuasion (that is not a Chevy 0_o), do give me a call.

Otherwise, I'm going to get ready to start saving up some monies for a down payment in the next three months. :( Still really scared to do it.

Oh a lighter note, not only have I paid off one college loan completely, but the available balance on my credit card finally again exceeds the spent balance. I'm more than halfway done paying it off. :)

OMG~!!!!

Yes, I knew they were making G.I. Joe, but NO I did not know who all was going to be in it. Just found out that Ray 'effin Park is going to be Snake Eyes! Hellz Yeah!



Ray Park = Darth Maul = Snake Eyes = TOTAL DOMINATION!

Iz needz G.I. Joe Icons now. Who haz them???

OMFG! THERE WILL BE BRAWL EPISODE SIX!!!!!!!!!!!!!

( HELLZ YEAH! )

Pix. I know I saw a post about your gig. Did it go good? Did you have fun? I'm too lazy to look for it again. Oh, and did you bring back pictures? I wanna seeeeee. ^_^

BTW, I'm stoked that you got to go out of town and rock the house. I cheered for you with lots of positive energy even though half of what 'Loop wrote looked like doomy-doomy time until he posted something along the lines of "we're all fine here."

A side-note, Michael Jackson stole Farrah's thunder. Must be his one last upset. Oh, and he's totally selling albums out the wazzu. He'll probably top his old sales before the weekend is over. Weird.

Anything else I need to update about?

Random icon for the boys:

I bet you never realized just how much Power Rangers and Sailor Moon look alike. Consider this as evidance...

I went from lvl 11 to lvl 17 tonight. I'll probably be working on the sub-job quest tonight, guys. Awesome stuff.

♥lori

Today Xisela was born (Elvaan Female; face 6; hair 1). Today she also reached level 11 warrior, but I finally had to log off as my eyes were beginning to hurt.

Maseiko, we missed you. <3 I hope you're online late Thursday so you can meet her.

♥lj

a; Final Fantasy 11 came in today and I had to work. Damn you, fate.

b; I've been feeling dizzy/light-headed for two days. I had the new ER doc, Dr. Hashmi, look at my ears to see if maybe that was the problem (Juanita told me to do so; she's so motherly) and, lo and behold, it was. Apparently, there's a minor amount of fluid on my ears that is causing me issues with balance and such. :(

c; I'm gonna have to go have my Pawpaw go get the antibiotics that he perscribed me tomorrow because I don't like the thought of being dizzy all weekend.