But I feel better?
Yes. I do.
It hurts me to say that, but I do. I don't know if I still love him or not, but I can't be with him. Things are just too hard and too wrong. I want freedom from what seems like a prison. I'm going to pay him the money I owe him and be done with him.
For good this time too. I can't do it again.
And no... still not back yet.