March 25th, 2003

[xkcd] Rapture

A few moments...

I had a few moments before my next class so I thought I would jot down a few ideas before I completely forgot them. I've been working on a letter to Kris since yesterday and its gettin' long. About 50% of it is just me rambling on about my day and then the other 50% actually pertains to him and me. *laughs* That's about how our conversations go though.

*smiles* We've been talkin' on the phone for a while now and its been pretty nice. He's so sweet. God, he's too sweet. I like him a lot, but I'm just so freakin' scared that I'm gonna screw everything up. I now know why I'm fighting with Stephen so much though. Its because I feel as if I'm being constricted by the things he, and everyone else for that matter, wants me to do. He wants to be married by the time he's 26. I don't even know what I'm going to be doing when I'm 26!! I don't want to plan ahead like he's doing. I'm a free spirit (or so i think) and I don't like being constricted by all his plans. It scares the living hell out of me!

*sigh* I might end up typing a few of the key passages out of my letter to Kris because I get really deep into that. A lot deeper that I had ever thought about it before. *smiles* But I guess that's a good thing, because I really need to be thinking about it, don't I? I think so...

Well... I need to be gettin' upstairs to my class. We've got to finish a test. :D

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