September 2nd, 2003

[xkcd] Rapture

Frightened... No... Petrified...

I know i shouldn't be scared of my surgery... but i'm petrified. I'm completely freaked. All i'm doin' is gettin' 4 little incisions about and inch and a half long each and i'm freakin' out. There's just so many things that are running through my mind about the surgery. I'm so scared that something bad is going to happen to me and somehow Stephen's going to be alone. That's my worst fear. I don't want Stephen to have to be without me. I love him too much. *sigh*

I just keep repeating to him and myself how simple this procedure is so hopefully it'll all be okay...

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[xkcd] Rapture

Just droppin' in...

I just wanted to leave a message so I could be doing something other than just chatting. I'm going to have surgery Thursday, as I'm sure everyone who has read my journal for the past 2 weeks knows. I'm feelin' better about it but now Stephen's about to fall apart. Its pretty sad because I don't want him upset. As long as nothing happens to me, everthing will be okay.

Guess I'll go for now... I'm roleplaying...

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