I don't know what it is, but for the past few months I've been utterly at a standstill when it comes to any sort of writing. I can't say that I've been uninspired, because that's not true at all. I've been inspired quite a few times. Sometimes all it takes is one song to make me feel that itch to write again. It's like I'm some sort of addict to the feeling that comes from telling a story. That's always how I've described it to people and it's the truth with me. Writing is an addiction that I used to be able to feed quite easily. As time has gone by, I've been able to write with some awesome people who helped keep that addiction fed even better than I could do alone.
I guess, perhaps, since I'm not writing with anyone currently that's probably why I haven't been able to get up the mental energies to perform. There's always one single game I tend to pour my energies into until either I run out or the game goes bust. Of course, usually that breakdown somehow has something to do with me. I don't understand. Perhaps I just get overzealous? Dunno really. I think that's why I haven't been looking into any games and/or writing lately. I don't want to participate in something that my mere presence will doom in the end.
Before you ask, no, I'm not depressed. Quite the opposite actually. Met a boy in May April. Oh, well, technically we haven't met yet, but that's the only word I have for it. We've been talking and/or texting pretty well every day/night since we met. Quite stoked about it really. Turns out that we've been dating for a month too. Well, if you can call living 300 miles apart dating, but I think we can since we're in constant freakin' contact with each other. Plus, I've decided that I'm going to go see him in August. I'm really excited about that. I'm ready to sit down with him and talk face-to-face rather that through the phone or Xbox Live (Yeah, btw, we met playing Gears of War 2 on Live). I've got a list of things I'd like to get done before I go visit in August though. Hair cut, my dentist appointment (which I've had since like February o_0), some clothes shopping, and cleaning my damn room (!!!!). Chris is betting that I won't do it, but I'm going to try to have it done before I leave simply because my mother would be really pissy if I didn't. Plus, that's only fair.
So... what else is going on? Work's getting tumbled around. Our director got promoted and so we're down a man in the lab. Going to be down two people if Law ends up leaving like I've heard he's going to. That's going to be a little hellish if things aren't straightened out. Otherwise, I'm really liking work even if people don't know what the hell an ER should be used for (IF YOU'VE BEEN SICK FOR A WEEK THEN GO TO THE DAMN DOCTOR! NOT THE EMERGENCY ROOM!!!).
OH! Got an email from Em. Was very nice to get that even though it took me four days to email her back. I got it Thursday morning and didn't get back to it until today because I was too lazy to do it while I was working this weekend. Yeah, not gonna lie. She seems to have found Zahira's muse for me. I told her I was glad someone has a hold of one of them because they've all abandoned me. Damn them. Fickle muses.
So, just so you know, all's well in my little world really. Just chillin' and trying to figure out what I need to do next.
Currently on repeat: Porn Star Dancing by My Darkest Days & Zakk Wylde