There's something inside of me that just can't let go of certain things no matter how hard I try to let them go. It's like the embodiment of spite lives in my brain and I can't get it to take up residence somewhere else. Why is this? I constantly think about them and I'm extremely tired of thinking about them because it does me no good. I cannot control anyone else's actions and I cannot change what has been done to me or because of me. I really need to accept that, but it's still hard. I still need some damn therapy. It would be wonderously helpful, I'm sure. At least I have my friends now and that's a million times better than having all the money I had in Little Rock. ^_^ Seriously.