So the real question is—do I want the position? Yes, I'd like to have it in order to have weekends off, but I don't want to give up the good thing I have going with my weekend stuff. I have 4 days off during the week and really good friends at work. Then again, living on a more normal schedule would be a godsend. Having Friday through Sunday off would be awesome and ultra fun. Cutting my 12 hour shift to 10 hours would be nice as well. Then again, I don't know how the remaining tech would feel about it. Also, I don't know if he's even going to offer me the job (though logic states that he would have to before he'd offer it to our PRN just for seniority's sake). I don't want to rock the boat, but I don't think I'll ever get another chance to have a more "normal" work schedule than right now. Things like this always happen around New Year's and so I'm kinda on edge about it. I'd hate to switch shifts and then suddenly decide that I hate it, but I'd hate to miss the opportunity to change my schedule. I also don't want to shove our PRN girl off onto my shift because I know she doesn't like it even though I know she could handle it with time. Hell, I was nowhere near prepared for it when I started, but nine months later we run like a well-oiled machine.
That's the other problem. I don't want to leave the great crew I have right at this moment. Working with my nurses and lab assistant are the best things ever, but I would love to be able to work with a more experienced tech in order to be more comfortable with my job. I've got something so good going on and I'm afraid this may end up as a case of "the grass isn't always greener," but I can't say it will if I don't take a shot.
I was told by someone I really like that I should do what's best for me and not be afraid of what would happen afterward. Thing is, I don't really know what's best for me. I have my reservations, but they're reservations about how everyone else would feel and not how I would feel about it. I would be very happy to have my weekends back. More happy that you could imagine. I'd also be extremely disappointed to leave those I have worked so hard to forge a bond with. I haven't talked to any more of the players involved, but I think I'll seek their opinions before Monday morning so I'll know what they think. I want to take everyone into consideration. What's best for the team? I know I should be thinking about what I want, but the patients will suffer if we're not where we all need to be and I want to make sure my lab runs as smoothly as possible. It means a lot to me as I take a lot of pride in my work.
Of course, there's still that whole "might not be offered the job" bit and part of me is hoping that he doesn't offer it to me so I don't have to make a decision either way. That would be the chicken's way out and that's always been how I handle things.
Ugh, making decisions is not my strong point. :(