It (bold-italic-underline-CAPITALIZE) SUCKS!!!
I was doing really good and was thinking I was going to be able to keep everything straight and organized but i'm having a tough time now.
THANK THAT ALL SEEING, ALL KNOWING BEING THAT'S BOUND TO BE OUT THERE SOMEWHERE for DR's Excuses.
On the other side of things, Stephen's taking a turn for the worse. His anxiety and depression are just going back and forth. He takes medicine for one and the other gets completely out of control.
He's nuts man... And its driving me INSANE!!
I hate to think about it because it just causes me so much stress. I'm gonna die of stress before this school year is over because of him and there's nothin' I can do about it.
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!
But I just can't handle all this. I really need a vacation... from him! But when I told him I wasn't coming to stay with him at his mom's Sunday night (he doesn't like to be alone while she's at work), he called me up later because he had dreams of suicide! I feel like its my fault, but I don't need to. He told me today that his DR said that its something that his brain does. His brain is so fucked up that it takes bad things and amplifies them and twists them into something else entirely.
GOD DAMN HIM!
I have a life too and I'd like to live it with out having to hold his hand everywhere I go! Not the good kind... the bad lil kid kind. All this is just pushing me away from him and I want to be with him, but I can't do that if he's messed up on RX Drugs or so psycho that he can't be alone at anytime. I'll go crazy myself!!! *pulls her hair out!* I've got to figure something out.... *sigh*
On a lighter side... what do you think of this new skin for the site? I'm too lazy to read the comments on the front page. I kinda like it. Its blue... so of course I like it! *laughs*
Guess I need to get to bed. *sigh*